"When I Leave the Room"

I was listening to The Message on dish network while I picked up my bedroom this past Wednesday and Natalie Grant was live playing songs from her new CD.  She introduced a song that she and her husband worked on together written for her 3 girls. For some reason I started crying before she even started singing.  Yes, it could have been my crazy pregnant hormones or maybe and more likely it was God stirring in my heart to make sure I sat down and really listened the words.

 

This song has played every night since I heard it for my sweet girls as they go to sleep and I pat their little backs. It is able to perfectly put my heart into the words that sometimes at the end of the day I simply do not have.  For me, it hits home to the days we live in right now when the days are so long but the time is moving fast. It will apply to my sweet baby boy when he arrives and I face that moment of leaving him in his room for the first time and I have to trust that he will keep breathing without me by his side. I believe the words will also touch my heart many more times in the future as my children grow and I am faced with how much I don't know and must choose to fall on my knees.  

 

 

Good night
Looks like we made it through the day
The moon sighs
And I know that we're okay

Sleep tight
I love to watch you drift away
I would come with you but on my knees I'll stay

 

Good night
Five little fingers holding mine
Take flight
Into your dreams and lullabies

There's nothing more that I can do
But just fall more in love with you
And ask the angel armies to stand by
When I leave the room

 

I'm gonna fail you
I already have
Ten thousand times
I will fall down flat

You'll have a seat in the front row
Of everything I don't know
And all I'm trying to be
You'll see

 

Good night
There will be storms that we come through
In time
We will slay dragons me and you

I'll always wanna hold you tight
Keep you safe with all my might
So I will leave Jesus next to you
When I leave the room

 

And you will run ahead
As if you know the way
And I will pray more
Then one should have to pray

There will be words we can't take back
Silences too
And I'll be on my knees
You'll see

 

One night
When I am old and unsteady
You'll want me to fight
But I'll tell you that I'm ready

When there's nothing left to do
I will still be loving you
Then you'll fold your fingers into mine
And I will let Jesus hold you tight
When I leave the room

Natalie Grant. "When I Leave the Room"